"Unless you assume a God, the question of life’s purpose is meaningless.” -Bertrand Russell, Atheist (excerpt from The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren)
Because what are we really here for, right?
Growing up I struggled a lot with depression…
Well actually, it’s more accurate to say that depression consistently stood on my neck as I painfully wheezed and heaved my way through life.
*Insert Daria Themesong*
Here’s my story:
Because my parents weren’t in the picture I was raised by my grandmother. All of my sisters were older than me by 15+ years. I didn’t connect with cousins my age and was pretty isolated throughout childhood. To top it off, I’m the “outside” baby. My sisters all shared a different mother than I did.
All in all, I’ve always felt out of place…which is a great place for the devil to wreak havoc.
I never felt like I had a reason for being alive. Majority of the time I felt like I was just taking up space. At times I was so depressed that all I could do was sit and exist. Stare at the wall for hours on end in a sea of unexplainable pain and overwhelming sadness…
It was thick.
I never knew that I had a real purpose.
I didn’t know that God took great care to create and design me. I didn’t know that my very existence was predestined and intentional. Instead of asking God why didn’t I die in my sleep each morning, I should’ve been asking why He woke me up in the first place.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
Plans. Prosperity. Purpose. HOPE.
When I found that scripture I held onto it very tightly. I needed it. I needed to know that God had plans for me, that He had a purpose for me…
…that I wasn’t a waste of space.
This blog is a great outlet for my experiences and emotions, but I mainly post to reach others like me.
The little girls with no direction. The young women who swell their chest up just to say they have a brand or title. To anybody who ever wanted to mean anything to anyone anywhere:
You are not a waste of space.
There are PLANS for you and a PURPOSE in your pain. There is a God. There’s HOPE for you!
Seek Him. And I promise you will find everything else.
Until then, remember: You are here for a reason.
With Love, Kay